Day 2

Yesterday was pretty successful. I went to the gym for almost 2 hours and then I pretty much stuck to the food plan the whole day. In fact I don’t think I ate anything after 5:30 at all.

Oh I shouldn’t called my husband and yelled at him. Now I’m all completely stressed out. He took my computer and now I had to go and buy another one. And when I told him that he has to give it back to me, he said that I have to give him his half from selling the house. There’s actually nothing left to give. The downpayment was part of the prenup and I got less back than what I put in. If he wanted to keep living in the house, he should have contributed more consistently and been home more. He should have taken more care of his family like other fathers and husbands.

Anyway, what I need to do now is make sure it doesn’t interfere with my 21 day challenge. I need to do this for myself.

Sunday Morning

Day 1 of the 21 day challenge.

Today is my first day of the 21 day challenge. Mamainthecity, i’d like you to hold me accountable to this goal.

My breakfast plans already went screwy since I don’t have any milk and cannot enjoy my usual protein shake. So I’m cooking some eggs.

My goal for today is to eat sensibly. I’m going to eat mostly protein meals. I will stop eating around 7:30. I am also going to the gym today at 10:30. I will do pilates and the balls class and then do the five factor fitness.

I have to admit that its hard to do the five factor fitness every day. Its just hard to commit to doing something every single day. 3 times a week is much easier. Maybe I can still do his program but do 2 days at a time on the days that I go to the gym.

Tomorrow, I’m going to cancel my hypnosis appointment. Its not working for me. It honestly seems to have no effect what so ever. Its dissappointing, but I have to move on and try something else. However, I have decided not to spend any more money on losing weight. I mean I may buy an occasional pilates video here and there, but I’m not spending hundreds of dollars for a miracle cure to my food addictions.

 

Everyday I’m growing more and more desparate and seems more urgent.

After my 21 goal day challenge success, I will reward myself with a pair of loulou lemon pants.

Saturday evening

Tomorrow I’m starting my new 21 day challenge of following through on my health fitness promises to myself. I’m eating right. I’m not eating late in the evening and I go to the gym 3 times a week. Tuesday, Thursday and Sunday.

Friday Morning

Getting payed today. Got my new couch. Last night the kids got into a big big fight about the couch. I forbade them to sit on it till morning. They both went to bed after huge tantrums.

I didn’t get to the gym. But I did at least half hour of biking. And a set of exercises from FFFitness.

Today’s Goals:

Eat sensibly.

Drink lost of decaf tea or water.

Don’t eat after 7.

Do Five Factor Fitness today.

Thursday morning

Its 6:32 and I have to wake up my kids in 28 minutes in order to make it to school on time. I don’t know why, but it seemed easier getting to the car at 7:30 last year than for 8 am today.  I am watching breakfast television and drinking almond tea.

Today’s goals.

I eat a good breakfast.

Soup and cheese string for brunch.

A corn on the cob lunch.

An egg and nutrisystem dinner.

Going to the gym after work.

Gotta go….

I really gotta go potty, so I don’t know how long I will last before I gotta run.

I don’t think hypno is working for me. I’m not sure if its that I’m not fully hypnotized or that the scripts just don’t work for me. But I’m currently losing money not weight. I thought that the process would be more natual in me being more aware of what I eat, or not having such a desire to eat. But I still have a desire to stuff my face when I’m am at home and not consider when I’m full. I can hear the things she says while I’m in hypno, but I don’t feel those things now. The only thing is that it seems to be giving me some awareness of my goals. I think it has given me a greater desire to succeed. I think it is also giving me the realization that I need to be more confident. But as far as food goes, I’m not sure that its worth the money.

I think I need to stop wasting money on losing weight. I think I need to focus on one day at a time on doing goals and following through with them.

Todays goals

Today I am eating the right foods. I am doing the five factor fitness. I’m paying attention to my body and recognizing a feeling of hunger of fullness. I am thinking about the foods I put in my mouth and making good choices.

Hypno

Yesterday I went to a hypnotherapist to try and see if it would help me with my eating habits. I’ve thought about doing it many times, but the only place that I knew that did it was Positive Changes Hypnosis. But they charged so much. Upwords of 3000 dollars. No matter how worth it for me to lose all the weight that I have, I still can’t afford this type of cash.

So yesterday I met with the hypnotherapist at her place. And we talked for a while. She asked me about my food habits and about how I felt about feeling fat. What made me decide to do it.

I have to say that I wasn’t very impressed with her surroundings. Though her place was very neat, many things inside seemed old and well dirty. Like the shower curtain in her bathroom looked like it hadn’t been changed in 5 years. The couch she had in the living room which probably used to be off white, now looked quite worn and darkened. These types of surroundings didn’t inspire me with much confidence. Whatever your career is, you want to look to your clients like you are so good and in demand that you have been able to afford yourself a nice lifestyle.

But I decided not to worry so much about it, since hypnotherapists use scripts that they learn or read from. It’s not like I hiring a stylist whose clothes don’t match and don’t fit. The hypnotherapist can apply her techniques to hypnotize you and then read from a script the suggestions for yourself. And though she may modify it a little bit to adapt it to you personally the majority of it will be the same. For example in my case she specifically suggested while I was under that I would be inspired to do the 5 factor fitness at 6 am. I told her that is the exercise that I wanted to do and she slipped it in there.

And so the session begain. I focused on the candle in her room, while she told me to relax every single muscle in my body. I felt completely aware of everything going and and of all of my thoughts but I just felt really relaxed and cozy. At one point she told me to open her eyes but said I would’t be able to. And I couldn’t. It was really freaky. Though she said that I probably could have if i really wanted to but I thought that I couldn’t.

I heard her suggest to me that I would feel focused and assertive. That I would drink more water. That I would think about the foods I eat. And reward myself for my emotions in other ways rather than food.

The session lasted about 40 minutes and then it was over.

Now, I have to say that after I went to my Mom’s to pick up the kids and I didn’t feel like eating anything. But that could have been because I had already stuffed myself before I went to hypnosis.

This morning I did the five factor fitness again after not doing it for a week. Even though today was a break day I did tomorrow’s day today.

So we’ll see if it works.

Palin

Interesting article right here.

http://sexualintelligence.wordpress.com/2008/09/04/a-thank-you-and-some-questions-for-governor-palin/

 

I usually don’t make judgements on politicians because I’m too busy making judgements on Angelina Jolie and Brad Pitt. Also Britney spears and of course, my husband.

One thing about Palin is that she has brought politics into relevancy with people like myself. I mean you cannot ignore a woman with 5 kids including one infant and a pregnant teenage daughter running for vice presidency.

I’m a working Mom. I have two adorable kids 4 and 5. At one point I had a nanny but didn’t feel comfortable with the stranger in my house. I also didn’t feel comfortable watching her get so close with my kids while I was at home. Since it was convenient, she lasted for 6 months until I one time while we were all watching TV and she was sitting and hugging my daughter. That was it. She was gone. I’m home from work, I want to sit and hug my kids while I’m watching TV.

Working was never a personal choice for me. I was always the bread winner. I am proud that i can provide for my family but it was never my choice to work. But since my Mom always worked so it wan’t that difficult to accept.

But though I would stay home if I had a choice, I don’t blame women who wish to work either. I mean some people are just happy working. So though I can’t really blame Palin either, I can’t say that her running for Vice Presidency sits right with me, either.

I just don’t believe that Vice Presidency is a 9-5 type of job. Its a job where you need to be available at any time of the day. Where you need to travel. And where, I would venture to say, the kids are not a priority. And though its a once in a lifetime opportunity for Palin, its also a once in a lifetime opportunity for her kids to have their Mommy close by at this age when they most need her.

There’s also something unkosher about parading your pregnant daughter with pride in front of everyone. Yes, it’s nothing to be ashamed of. And her daughter will be ok. But to me its not about a mistake of having sex outside the marriage. I mean who doesn’t these days? Its about the options that a pregnant teenager has in her life. And though Palin will either hire nice nannies for her daughter so that her daughter can go to college, or give her son in law a cushi job, most pregnant teens struggle enormously in their lives.

So, yes, I think she is setting a bad example, especially as a republican and especially as someone who has the principles described in the link above.

I almost fell off my chair when I heard….

There are lots of eating fads. One that I truly don’t understand is the raw food diet. Sure some celebrities do it, but well, come on….

So on 20/20 yesterday John Stossel interviewed an advocate for this food movement. And he asked if he really thought that this man, was healthy. The man turned around put his hands behind his back in a praying position. Ok that’s impressive, I suppose, but also kind of gross and I don’t think indicates health. It indicates flexibility.

Then John said: but you look kind of emaciated. And the man said that he was traveling and was tired. The man did look gaunt. I couldn’t really say that he was a picture of health, but I thought that he had lived a long time so perhaps he could claim longevity as a benefit of this diet. He looked at least 80 or 90. Well my parents are approaching 70 and judging by the way they look, I would say that this man was 90. Especially if he claimed that he was healthy.

Then John Stossel said something that just completely threw me. “But you are only 8 years older than me!” I almost fell off my chair. John Stossel in that interview looked like he was 40. The interviewee looked so much older than him that I thought it was a huge joke. The kind that you would hear on the daily show.

Now, I just looked up John Stossel’s age and it looks like he is actually 60. So he looks amazing for his age. So the old man is really 68. Still he looks about 90. And he was breathing uneasy. So this diet is really not  good. If you want to look good, eat what John Stossel eats.