Day 10

Yesterday I was going through a withdrawal from the Monday relapse into binging on food. Not sure what came over me but I just ate everything in my fridge even before the we went to the Rosh Hashana dinner at my Mom’s place.

So yesterday I held myself back but I’m afraid I still overate just  a little bit. Not much. It was hard to switch back to being conrolled. I then went to the gym in the evening and I did two days worth of five factor fitness and 35 minutes of cardio. So I’m back on track to day.

Whenever I relapse and have a binge day, I forget how terrible it makes me feel. I’m stuffed. I cannot sleep. At night I feel terribly dehydrated. And in the morning I almost felt nauseated and had a headache.  Not sure if the headache is related, but the overall feeling was just very lousy.

After work yesterday I came home and watched tv for a bit. I was tempted not to go to the gym since I had blown my food routine. But I knew that it was an important step in getting back on track. And it was. It really gave a boost to my morale and I felt really happy and proud of myself coming out of the gym.

So today, I need to stay on track.

I am eating small meals throughout the day with a 3 hour break in between meals. But in the evening, I am going to let myself have a nice dinner with my sister. My goal this evening is not to take food from my sister. Not to finish her food and not to take it from her plate. (Unless we share a desert).